It seems like forever ago since I’ve written anything. Where do I begin?
The past six months have been a blur; each half an oxymoron and a contradiction of the other.
On one hand, I thought the previous semester would be my easiest: I only had one class on top of field placement. Yet, I was disappointed to reach the end with barely anything to show for. I consistently got stuck in my head, ruminating on things of the past and on a future that had to wait longer.
On the other hand, this semester foreboded difficult times ahead: full load in school (it’s the final semester of my program, too), placement, and a new job. Surprisingly, I thrived in those busy weeks and struggled when my workload dwindled down occasionally. The first half of the semester was challenging, but it kept me on my toes and away from my head.
With the busyness of it all, I stopped checking or interacting on social media. I deactivated my accounts in an attempt to learn to rely on myself more and be comfortable with not having to express myself on the Internet all the time. It was difficult, but I did it.
However, I now feel disconnected from so many things. I feel like I can’t relate to so many conversations because I’m not on social media, nor do I watch TV for anything. I am also on a long hiatus from reading books. All I can really talk about these days is ECE-related. And even then it feels like I don’t know enough to actually talk about child development.
But I digress…
So what do the next six months have for me?
I now volunteer with the Nanny Angel Network on top of my current job as a Supply Educator. I also face the seemingly insurmountable load of assignments due this second half of the semester. But I only have a few weeks left of school, then I will be walking up the stage to receive my Associate’s Degree.
As for my next steps after that, I have not decided yet. I only know that I’ll be taking a much needed and well deserved vacation. I can’t wait for it!
I am definitely going to continue to work and volunteer, but I do not know yet if I will be looking for a full-time position at a child care centre or if I will be going back to school for a Bachelor’s Degree. This is partly because I am anticipating to join an intensive outpatient program that will hopefully help me work through my depression beyond just taking medications.
Other than these, I will be working with a group of enthusiastic people on creating a YouTube channel that we hope would inspire and encourage viewers to execute–do more, talk less–while still having fun. I will also do my best to continue sending bi-weekly newsletters through The Play Process, if not post reflections and activities regularly.
I guess that’s the overview of my 2017.
There’s still so much going on in my head that I can’t translate into words, so I’ll leave it at that for now.