It’s really not a good idea to miss your meds. Even if you’re really sick and super busy in the past few days. There is no excuse. You know what happens when you forget to take your antidepressants. It does not affect only you, but also the people around you, turning the bad into the worst.
Yesterday’s bitching was uncalled for. Last night’s tantrums was immature. Yes, you are allowed to feel what you feel, but you’ve got to keep in mind how you express yourself.
You made things worse by focusing on the negative emotions. He’s right, you know. You can get yourself together. But instead of breathing in positivity and breathing out negativity, you choked yourself on self-loathing.
Nice words and a hug would indeed have been a better remedy. But when you push others to their limits, you have no right to demand anything from them. You are in charge of your own emotions, not theirs (and vice versa).
Remember that night you were extremely frustrated and you just prayed to God? Remember how you felt instantly better with His grace? Yeah, you decided not to do that last night even when the thought came across your mind. See what it led to?
When you know how well something works for you, don’t ignore it for the sake of attention. Because you don’t get the attention you want and need. Instead, you invite negative reactions from others.
As much as you want time to compose yourself and let go of your upset feelings, you need to give others time to heal and let go of their own frustrations (with you).
Your impulsiveness leads to nowhere. Patience is key. Patience with yourself. Patience with others.